you cannot have a crush on him.
id say my fashion style is like a girly vintage pin-up with a hint of sexy and a dash of glamour.
im sorry but i will never understand how some people in relationships need to ask their boyfriend/girlfriends permission to go out or to drink or what to wear or what time to come home.
like, if you love someone enough, you wouldn’t need to feel hella possessive or jealous.
you should be able to trust that person and know that if they love you too, they will respect you and not do anything to hurt your bond or your image.
Like, you should be able to share your feeling with your partner.
tell them if something makes you uncomfortable.
but not demand. Never demand.
I know I wouldn’t like someone bossing me around, telling me what to do.
maybe it’s just because my mom always raised me to be very independent and not take shit from anybody.
But idk, that’s just how I feel.
and try to figure out how the heck i got sick.
and also figure out why my eye hurts.
it seriously feels like i have a black eye.
and yet, it looks totally fine.
i think its because Andrew, the bartender at my job, threw a paper-ball-wad-thing at me as his “attempt” to “flirt”
and it hit accidentally hit me in my face
but hes cute, so i forgive him.
oh, and random thought number one:
i could spend my whole paycheck and weeks worth of tips at home depot and be 100% okay with it.
i wish i could build and decorate my house from scratch like they do on those home decor shows on tv.
that would be the best.
random thought number two:
i have rediscovered my love for Mr. Capone-e.
hes like a west-coast sureño gangsta rapper/singer.
but his songs are more on the slow-jam side of the spectrum.
i had totally forgotten that i put his songs in my ipod when i was going through my middle school gangsta phase.
but i also realized, gang-related-stuff aside, i still really love his music.
and random thought number two:
i wish we could tattoo our makeup on.
that way i wouldnt have to waste my time taking it off and putting it back on every day.
i think they actually tattoo eyeliner….?
but that sounds totally not safe.
okay, its posole time.
literally every other picture on my dash is atristic and hipster pictures of couples being coupley
and cuddling holding hands and kissing and just ugh.
and to make matters more upsetting,
they all have perfect bodies.
im getting off tumblr.
ill be back when im not reminded of how alone and not skinny i am.
and i guess you could say i did.
but life has a way of changing your plans
no matter how hard you try to keep things just the way they are.
i still, in my own little way, have things figured out.
but not everything.
its like im on this big adventure
where i know my destination,
but i have no clue as to how im going to get there.
i was always so sure about everything that was going to happen.
I knew when and why and how.
and now, i dont know.
now i just have to let life do its thing
while i sit here, patiently, waiting to find out.
im still not entirely sure if i like it or not.
and its not like its a bad thing,
i just dont like not knowing.
we’ll just have to wait and see.
my friends and i celebrated one of my girlfriends birthday by going to Disneyland and hiking up to the hollywood sign and getting sushi and more Disneyland!
it was seriously the best.
makes me realize how much i adore my friends and how lucky i am to have them.
that being said, im going to be uploading a lot of pictures from this weekend.
so bear with me if i dont post as much of other stuff.
but dont worry, my friends are all supes adorbs.
now if only i didnt have to wait a whole week for the next episode.
and to say im excited is an understatement.
this was a much needed trip.
because of what happened with you-know-who.
i never told you guys what happened!
okay. let me break it down:
so after 4 glorious days of not working and doing absolutely nothing
(well not nothing, i did manage to clean my room and fix my itunes music)
it is now time for me to get back to work once again.
and even though its bittersweet, i do love being lazy.
this girl is totally broke.
so if im not on tumblr these next couple of days
its not because i dont want to.
its because a girls gotta pay her jcpenny card.
and her phone bill.
see ya in a couple of days!
New Girl starts back up tomorrow.
How I Met Your Mother start in a week.
& American Horror Story starts again on Oct. 9
i have decided im going to watch Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
and wallow in self pity.
and every time it happens,
every time you get my hopes up,
i find myself thinking
i hope this time things go as planned.
but they almost never do.
but Friday is coming.
Friday is September 6, 2013.
i hope this time things go as planned.
but it was a very cool survey.
a lot of things about me nobody really knows.
thats how cool this survey was.