its crazy how you can have your heart set on something,
and then BOOM, you start questioning everything you ever wanted.
im usually really good at knowing what i want
and knowing how to get it.
but recently, ive been presented with more options than i had intended for.
(and im not saying that its a bad thing)
but its in my nature to be stubborn.
and i hate changing my mind about things.
and so now im just sitting here and thinking to myself:
WOW my life could turn out pretty awesome with either of the paths that are in front of me.
so which one do i take?
i just cant seem to make a decision.
and im not quite sure i like that.
like, i know where im going,
but i dont know how or when im going to get there.
i just hope life takes me on the path im supposed to be on because Lord knows i have no idea what im doing right now.
after 8 seasons and 184 episodes,
after all off the crying and all the laughing,
i have seen Mrs. Ted Mosby!
oh my god.
those last 50 seconds were best 50 seconds of my whole entire 21 years of life.
ugh. i love her so much already, its insane.
because i need a couple of things
and also because i was really craving Ramen noodles.
but then, once i was there,
i started thinking about my health and my weight
and opted not to buy ramen and go home and be healthy instead.
and boy, was i proud of myself.
but then i went to the dollar store and ended up buying a 5 pack of ramen
and then i came home and ate two
and now i feel sick
and im suddenly regretting all my life choices.
i just saw a picture of Darren Criss’ butt in boxer briefs
and i cannot stop looking at it.
hashtag his butt is perfect
hashtag pervert alert
hashtag its okay because hes my husband
ugh, i cant.
marry me already you silly goose
aka shes probably working on a new movie or tv show or whatever in which she has to portray a female of ratchet proportions.
or something along those lines.
because i refuse to believe that this girl is behaving this way for realsies.
im not a little fucking girl anymore
but i hate that im not allowed to be an adult either.
the fact that i cant afford my own car or my own place just yet make you feel all high and mighty doesnt it.
i hate this and i hate that i still have to depend on you.
i literally cannot wait until i can get as far away from this place as possible.
the first time i bought the Nars Orgasm blush, i lost it.
the second time i bought the Nars Orgasm blush, i got it stolen.
the third time i bought the Nars Orgasm blush, it shattered to pieces.
i think life is trying to tell me something.